The Metamorphosis

I'm recalling the past, laughing at myself. Thinking about all the stupid things I've done, and the embarrassing moments I've gone through. First off, I was once very devoted in the pursuit of love. I would wait like a sohai in the chat room, hoping to meet that person. The pressure of good impression built up quite intensely. At that time, I would dig into the stuff she likes, forcing myself to accept them and hoping they would grow on me. Wasted a lot of my liquid asset on things I didn't really like. Moreover, I even took the trouble to plan topics for conversation. Determined on knowing her thoroughly, I often spilled out questions that seemed very unnecessary. To heighten the folly, I jotted down notes of everything I've asked and created a chronicle for reference. It's funny that I didn't feel that idiotic when I was under the spell. I guess I was mentally blinded. Apart from that, I wouldn't miss a chance to be lavish in giving gifts. Sometimes, I sent gifts without apparent reasons. (After thinking hard for a reason to do so.) Well, there were times when I would receive something in return. Words can't describe what an euphoria I had felt! Hmm... It took me 30 over months to realize that my efforts were fruitless. (Unrequited love, that is.) Then, the sandstorm struck. The getting over part was a wretched one. Fortunately, I made a couple of new friends when I transferred to another school. The unrestrained laughter from sarcastic jokes, dumb parodies and some playfulness were awesome. My shoulders felt lighter from time to time and finally I got over it in the beginning of 2006. The bitter-sweet experience was a stepping stone for me to step out of the room called naivety. I changed, marking the end of the “Kelvin Phase”. It's not that bad after all since I learned a lot. Say “Hi” to Nobu; The less sensitive, less fragile, less boring, more matured, more perverted, extra sohai and happier version of me.